Odd title I know but when you are faced with your mortality; when something is wrong with your body and you have that moment’s clarity that your soul and mind may feel immortal but they are in fact housed in a machine that will break and heal and one day break down all together you kind of FREAK. This is a BIG FEAR of mine, dying scares the crap out of me I am not going to lie!
Next week I get to have some nasty tests done in hospital to ensure I am not like really sick or that none of my parts are about to give up on me! And after my ‘Last Holiday’ moment I realized I would rather know. Today the mundane seemed special, a meeting, a laugh and joke with a friend felt REAL. Now don’t get me wrong I am not being melodramatic at all…but rather just noting how fragile and beautiful life is.
Next week I get to have some nasty tests done in hospital to ensure I am not like really sick or that none of my parts are about to give up on me! And after my ‘Last Holiday’ moment I realized I would rather know. Today the mundane seemed special, a meeting, a laugh and joke with a friend felt REAL. Now don’t get me wrong I am not being melodramatic at all…but rather just noting how fragile and beautiful life is.